Ponies rule!

http://www.pawnation.com/2009/05/21/service-animals-pets-helping-people?icid=main|main|dl5|link3|http%3A%2F%2Fwww.pawnation.com%2F2009%2F05%2F21%2Fservice-animals-pets-helping-people

Tags: ponies!
Current Mood: bouncy

Well, I did it. I told the priest who's marrying us (in an e mail) about my alters-he e'd back, asking, 'what are alters' so I wrote him this description, which some of you might be interested in reading, if you're not, just consider it TMI and skip over it. He asked me, 'what are alters'? And this is what I wrote back:

"Multiple personalities.I did have 4, through therapy have narrowed it down to 2, Sarah, who's three, and Jordan, who's 17. DID--Dissasociative identity disorder, and if you're wondering, "Does Anne just think she has this?" I thought that too, in the beginning, when I would lose time, and drive places and not remember how I got there, and feel like I was watching myself act totally unlike how I would usually act. It's part of my diagnosis. My therapist is sure of it. Why I have it is well....we've kind of narrowed it down to my hugely inconsitent, borderline traumatic childhood, the extreme emotional/from time to time physical abuse(from my mom) my abandonment issues from being adopted, the sexual abuse from my uncle(which mostly a lot of inappropriate touching on his part, but still made me feel gross), the fact that I was almost raped about 20 years ago--this is pre-Mark. In short, I have so much baggage that Samsonite and American Tourister want me to be their poster girl.
Aren't you glad you asked? And yes, I do have a sense of humor about it all. I HAVE to. If not, I'd be residing in a lovely rubber suite overlooking the Hudson. Now, I hope by telling you all this, you will not run away in abject terror, but if you're wondering if I am going to integrate the other two, we will talk about it. It's r eally complicated, as you can probably imagine. Mark should be cannonized for dealing with it as well as he does."

Now, I've known Fr. O for years, but I've done so much reading on DID that I KNOW one of the things that used to be thought was that the person who had this was possessed. I'm seeing him today, and there's this little niggling fear in the back of my head that he's going to meet me at the door of the church with a bottle of Holy Water, yelling"The power of Christ compells you!" I honestly am pretty sure this WILL NOT happen, but I worry. I may even say that to him, as a joke. He's got enough of a dry sense of humour that he should appreciate it.
On another subject entirely, I had to buy another library card. The head librarian--who looks like a cross between a stick figure and a dried up apple woman was there, and kept glaring at me saying, "You HAVE TO PICK UP ALL YOUR HOLDS TODAY!'. Jordan, my 17 year old alter came out, and said, "Don't have an anyeurism." :). Hey, it comes in handy sometimes...
Anyway, lastly a few days ago, I'm at the library and there's this little boy(I guess he's a little more than two) sitting on the floor looking at a picture book. All of a sudden he starts announcing (as only 2 year olds can) letters, 'A!' (pause while pages rustle) 'H!'
I figure it was an alphabet book. This went on for a few minutes, until the mom took the book from him to check it out. "No," he complained, "I weading dat!"
I love kids.
Have a good weekend, all!

Tags: libraries, mental illness
Current Mood: calm

Called Mark today, he was resting because he'd had a seizure night before last. He falls out of bed and gets these terrible rug burns on his feet because of how he seizes, he'll rub them on the carpet. Thank God that's all that happened this time. Last time he had a black eye for ten days.
I worry about him. I wish they could find some kind of drug that would help. He's been on everything known to man, he sees on of the most prominent neurologists on the East Coast--she works at Yale University Hospital.
Being a realist, I know that there's always a chance he could die from this--I had a friend's brother that did--and with that of course, comes the guilt I feel when I'm not as patient with him as I might be.
Chronic illnesses suck worms, people. :(

Tags: epilepsy sucks
Current Mood: anxious

I do not want to debate about this, I do not want to ARGUE about this, I'm just posting to express my opinion.

http://rightwingnews.com/mt331/2009/05/obama_on_national_prayer_day_n.php

What in the WORLD is wrong with this man? It's a freakin' DAY. A day! A day, that mind you, isn't affiliated with any particular religion. In fact, with how it is described here, it's a long standing tradition. Why couldn't he attend one of the services? Yes, prayer is a private thing, but, for believers, it can be a unifying force! I just. don't. get. it.
I will say I hope I'm not the only person who feels this way, but to be frank, I'm starting to.
This is a free country. Everyone is entitled to their opinion. However, let me put it to you this way. I have never, I hope, put down someone because of their unbelief, either friends or acquaintances. I'm sure I've said I can't understand why they don't believe, but never said they were 'wrong', or shoved my beliefs down their throat.
Yet, it seems de riger(sp) and par-for-the-course, to ridicule people who DO believe!
I was watching CNN last night, the network that CLAIMS to be as unbiased as Fox News is biased--AND, for the record, do I think Fox News is biased--yes, sometimes, however, they do have Geraldo, and Alan Colmes...
Anyway, CNN was reporting on The Rev Albert Cutie--no, it's not pronounced that way--:) and had a rather respected priest on to comment--Fr. Mitch Pacwa, of EWTN. I think they were EXTREMELY disrespectful to him, interrupting, not letting him answer the questions, when they pressed him on the subject of priests being celibate. And, I'm tired of it. I'm tired of the sniggering, the jokes, the bad attitude towards Catholics. This priest was WRONG in his actions, yes he's a human being, however...to use this, as Fr. Cutie is as a forum to say priests should be allowed to marry is, well, it's disgusting to me.
The priesthood is a sacred vocation. It is devoting your life, in my opinion, entirely to God, the church, and it's people. And there are good priests out there, ones we hardly ever hear of.
As to the molestation scandal? Do I think that all the priests who molested children should be defrocked? ABSOFRIGGINLUTLEY. Do I think any pastor who transferred a pedophile priest to another parish should be strung up by the short hairs, or worse? Do I think Cardinal Law should be burned at the stake? HELL, YES!!!!!!!!!!!
However, making this a blanket condemnation of ALL priests, the church, and the religion is ABSURD.
And I'm tired of having to defend my religion and hear it torn apart by everyone.

Tags: rant religion who the hell cares anymore
Current Mood: infuriated

First of all, can anyone help me with making my journal Friends Only? With everything I'm going through right now, I'm really not sure I want the world to have access to it. Anyone who could supply me with a few Faraday icons would be also, most thanked. :)

Anyway, my w/e was....interesting...and those who know me know what that means, and for those who don't, well read on dear friends, and be enlightened.
Most of you know that Sunday was Mom's 75th. I went over to Mark's house--I was going to be spending the day w/him, and called her from there, so he could pass on his good wishes as well. So, we called, and sang, and the FIRST thing she said after she thanked us was "I got your Mother's Day card, but I didn't get a b-day card..." I ignored that, and the conversation was going fine, until she asked, as she always does, about how the wedding planes were going. I told her we were going to meet with the priest and ask him about a concern that had come up regarding us and the possibility of children, and that's all she needed. She went off on me(while we were still on speaker-phone) about HOW could I think of having a child, and DID I EVEN KNOW WHAT DO DO WITH A CHILD? As you can probably guess, the conversation ended soon after that.
Bottom line, Mark and I fought for the rest of the day because I was in an ugly mood, and he told me he was tired(understandably so) of having to deal with the way I was after dealing with my mother.
So, here I am, today, knowing, basically, I am going to have to tell her "If you can't stop being critical and tearing me down, I do not want you to be part of this wedding---or, maybe even in my life for that matter'. I almost called her today and told her that but knew that no good could come of it.
If she were a friend or acquaintance, it would be easy to cut her off. It should be easy, even though she is my mother. I know I will have to write her a letter--I will try to do that before I see my therapist on Thursday, which, of course, puts off the Benfic I've been promising some of you--sorry.
I'll share it with you guys as well.
It's time for me to be happy. I want a life with the man I love, who loves me as close to unconditionally as is humanly possible. I want to trust in that, rather than mom's negativity.
So, I'm giving her notice: Mom, you're FIRED. :) Unless of course, you change.

You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, you'll find, you get what you need.-Jagger/Richards

Tags: life, the universe and everything
Current Mood: contemplative

I'm IMing with Mark. I made the mistake of telling him that he reminded me of Daniel Farraday, one of the reasons being his endearing 'absent-mindedness'
For some reason, Mark seems to think that 'absent-minded'= 'airhead', and I'm trying to convince him, otherwise.
I think someone who's 'absent-minded' is so because they are so brilliant and have so many thoughts running around in their head all the time, that at times, it's hard to say the right thing, or come up with a quick answer.
Mark is convinced it means 'stupid'. Some help? :)
MEN.

Tags: men vs women
Current Mood: irritated

I have seen these 12 billion times, and they STILL make me laugh:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZJ9uteDz3So

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IhJQp-q1Y1s

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oYlzTdSZeI4


It never gets old...
But one of my all time favorites...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B2Je1CEPkUM

Tags: silliness
Current Mood: chipper

I'll admit this once, and only once.
Jeremy Davies is DEAD SEXY. (No pun intended)
Waves at Ashli, then hangs 45 year old head, in shame.




Truth be told, if you guys want an idea of what my Mark is like, look no further. Same body type, same speech patterns, same absentmindedness--partially because of his epilepsy, same coloring, minus the beard, Mark only has the stache. I want him to grow the beard back--he had one when we met, almost 19 years ago... but he says it's too much of a pain to maintain.
That is all.
You all can feel free to stop laughing anytime. :)

Oh, and I just found this lovely thing-




guh, Guh, GUH. From shooting stills of Iron Man II, that comes out NEXT summer. You know, hell with the shame. I LOVE being a fangirl!

Tags: men with brains...well, you know
Current Mood: silly

Oh, and I apologized to Mom. I just felt better afterwards. Am working on that, and a bunch of fun stuff in therapy, but, here's the note.
"All I know is I spent most of the episode, calling Eloise vile names. That actress, who is very good, btw--of course she is, she's British :)--was excellent at being a bitch. What I want to know, and what we'll probably never know now is, if Dan was killed in the past, did he EVER exist, and what does that change...and why the frack does everyone want to go home so badly now, and where is Sayid, and this is all most seemingly and disturbingly beginning to turn into a bad version of the Wizard of Oz....and, dear lord, OH MY Dear Lord, do not let that happen....and I still want to know Libby's back-story, and Darlton has said we NEVER will...so, what else will we NEVER know...and btw, I don't think Nestor Carbonell wears eyeliner because I've seen him in other things, and he does this really sexy commercial for Heineken where he speaks Spanish...um, that last thing was a definite non-sequitor, but who cares? LOL!
BTW, this e-mail gets my vote for 'best run-on sentence---EVER!'"

Tags: lost makes my brain hurt.
Current Mood: content